I don't think i'd be missed if i was gone?

forget him. and forget your inhibitions and when you go out think 'what have i got to loose?' i dont mean sleep around but if a guy is interested, give him your number and arrange to meet sometime. that way he will have to get to know you. plus, guys like it when women play hard to get. theyll have much more respect for you and when it comes to the point where you want to take that step, will probably want you more and respect you for knowing who you truly are